Most of the day has flown like bursts of wind....adorned with spaces of silence. Are these thoughts or noises cluttering my mind. A silent man could be witholding a storm and you'd never know when he'd break!
Well ofcourse its not my thoughts coz I'm living amidst noise everywhere...the music, or TV or the machines buzzing by on and off....its all tampering with the stillness in the ear...
Basically life is noisy anyway....we need a break and we watch a movie or go out...and thats noise again....or we listen to music and its noise again...or we read...and thoughts noisy again..
Noise here is anything as opposed to the stillness of the mind and inner tranquility....
I wish I could feel so much at peace with myself that all noise would turn into pleasant blankness...within me...
So I come out of my workplace and sit in the lawn welcoming the medical college gates...pleasant sharp sun rays make way into the earth between the grass blades...the breeze so careful as not to disturb the music of silence....I sit here and feel the stability which Mother Earth infects me..
Here I am fresh again and ready to take on the world...its wonderous how a mother's touch could heal without words or medicines..!
Monday, July 25, 2005
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
giggles
Warm, hot and humid...thats how I felt at 8 in the morning....here goes the saying,"Whether its the early bird or late....its the same fate...get roasted!!"
Another summer day.....and my skin shimmeringly brown now ... am I the same skin conscious person who I was back in India? It doesnt matter anymore how much cream I have on my skin . I know I am getting darker day by day and ,"Mirror mirror on the wall fair or dark, its ME afterall".
Work seems to have stuck at an eternal glitch. I hav done enough philosophizing now and nothing seems to get me the output...ofcourse there has been some kind of hard work as well (giggles)
Shuttupp and get back to wrk CHILD WOMAN!! Grow upp!!!
Another summer day.....and my skin shimmeringly brown now ... am I the same skin conscious person who I was back in India? It doesnt matter anymore how much cream I have on my skin . I know I am getting darker day by day and ,"Mirror mirror on the wall fair or dark, its ME afterall".
Work seems to have stuck at an eternal glitch. I hav done enough philosophizing now and nothing seems to get me the output...ofcourse there has been some kind of hard work as well (giggles)
Shuttupp and get back to wrk CHILD WOMAN!! Grow upp!!!
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Inspiration
Yet another day...so mundane. I booked tickets to India. Finished cooking...plannin to start my wrk. Things hav been slow yet steady, lately....like the sand dunes moving to the orchestra of winds...knowing yet not knowing their direction of journey....
My friend used to say..." We are like the ants on the back of an elephant. We try to move south and think it our direction of life..whilst the elephant may be heading north."
I close my eyes to connect to myself and I feel the inspiration driving me day and night. Life is nothing without inspiration. Some of us find it inside, some look for it elsewhere....
The fragrance of a flower cannot be seen,yet it heralds its existance. And I think that our inspirations are driving us towards the cause of our existance....yet they r not quite evident
We r all so quite bogged by the small upheavals in our path of life.We should probably follow the light of inspiration...then,all we see is the sky and the so-called obstacles vanish.
My friend used to say..." We are like the ants on the back of an elephant. We try to move south and think it our direction of life..whilst the elephant may be heading north."
I close my eyes to connect to myself and I feel the inspiration driving me day and night. Life is nothing without inspiration. Some of us find it inside, some look for it elsewhere....
The fragrance of a flower cannot be seen,yet it heralds its existance. And I think that our inspirations are driving us towards the cause of our existance....yet they r not quite evident
We r all so quite bogged by the small upheavals in our path of life.We should probably follow the light of inspiration...then,all we see is the sky and the so-called obstacles vanish.
Monday, July 04, 2005
Random thots
I wake up this morning and smell sweet sweat dancing on my forehead.....welcome summer!....see my roomies couching in bed....finding it hard to propel themselves forward on a long weekend morning....they all hav a lazy smile...something naughty and satisfying:Its weekend and no hurrying to go to work. I feel no better...:)
I stand in front of the mirror....whom do I see? Half awake ,half asleep....I see last nights thoughts surfacing in the mirror image.....I look so much like mom....do i look better or lesser..? huh! what has US done to me. Am a lill grown, lill serious now....A lill corrupt eh? I hav quite learnt to break and bend rules....Am not able to meet my eyes for have so much wrk to do and Ive gladly spent the weekend. But still I hav the arrogant grin...
I wonder wher is me? What is me? I still wanna see that me, 40 yrs from now....no matter what the winds of change might have eroded off me....
Like everysong has an essence ,embellishments apart.....I want the song of my soul to pour into my being when I see myself....and paradoxically, I mostly know I'd need a lifetime to realise this song!
I stand in front of the mirror....whom do I see? Half awake ,half asleep....I see last nights thoughts surfacing in the mirror image.....I look so much like mom....do i look better or lesser..? huh! what has US done to me. Am a lill grown, lill serious now....A lill corrupt eh? I hav quite learnt to break and bend rules....Am not able to meet my eyes for have so much wrk to do and Ive gladly spent the weekend. But still I hav the arrogant grin...
I wonder wher is me? What is me? I still wanna see that me, 40 yrs from now....no matter what the winds of change might have eroded off me....
Like everysong has an essence ,embellishments apart.....I want the song of my soul to pour into my being when I see myself....and paradoxically, I mostly know I'd need a lifetime to realise this song!
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