Most of the day has flown like bursts of wind....adorned with spaces of silence. Are these thoughts or noises cluttering my mind. A silent man could be witholding a storm and you'd never know when he'd break!
Well ofcourse its not my thoughts coz I'm living amidst noise everywhere...the music, or TV or the machines buzzing by on and off....its all tampering with the stillness in the ear...
Basically life is noisy anyway....we need a break and we watch a movie or go out...and thats noise again....or we listen to music and its noise again...or we read...and thoughts noisy again..
Noise here is anything as opposed to the stillness of the mind and inner tranquility....
I wish I could feel so much at peace with myself that all noise would turn into pleasant blankness...within me...
So I come out of my workplace and sit in the lawn welcoming the medical college gates...pleasant sharp sun rays make way into the earth between the grass blades...the breeze so careful as not to disturb the music of silence....I sit here and feel the stability which Mother Earth infects me..
Here I am fresh again and ready to take on the world...its wonderous how a mother's touch could heal without words or medicines..!
Monday, July 25, 2005
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
giggles
Warm, hot and humid...thats how I felt at 8 in the morning....here goes the saying,"Whether its the early bird or late....its the same fate...get roasted!!"
Another summer day.....and my skin shimmeringly brown now ... am I the same skin conscious person who I was back in India? It doesnt matter anymore how much cream I have on my skin . I know I am getting darker day by day and ,"Mirror mirror on the wall fair or dark, its ME afterall".
Work seems to have stuck at an eternal glitch. I hav done enough philosophizing now and nothing seems to get me the output...ofcourse there has been some kind of hard work as well (giggles)
Shuttupp and get back to wrk CHILD WOMAN!! Grow upp!!!
Another summer day.....and my skin shimmeringly brown now ... am I the same skin conscious person who I was back in India? It doesnt matter anymore how much cream I have on my skin . I know I am getting darker day by day and ,"Mirror mirror on the wall fair or dark, its ME afterall".
Work seems to have stuck at an eternal glitch. I hav done enough philosophizing now and nothing seems to get me the output...ofcourse there has been some kind of hard work as well (giggles)
Shuttupp and get back to wrk CHILD WOMAN!! Grow upp!!!
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Inspiration
Yet another day...so mundane. I booked tickets to India. Finished cooking...plannin to start my wrk. Things hav been slow yet steady, lately....like the sand dunes moving to the orchestra of winds...knowing yet not knowing their direction of journey....
My friend used to say..." We are like the ants on the back of an elephant. We try to move south and think it our direction of life..whilst the elephant may be heading north."
I close my eyes to connect to myself and I feel the inspiration driving me day and night. Life is nothing without inspiration. Some of us find it inside, some look for it elsewhere....
The fragrance of a flower cannot be seen,yet it heralds its existance. And I think that our inspirations are driving us towards the cause of our existance....yet they r not quite evident
We r all so quite bogged by the small upheavals in our path of life.We should probably follow the light of inspiration...then,all we see is the sky and the so-called obstacles vanish.
My friend used to say..." We are like the ants on the back of an elephant. We try to move south and think it our direction of life..whilst the elephant may be heading north."
I close my eyes to connect to myself and I feel the inspiration driving me day and night. Life is nothing without inspiration. Some of us find it inside, some look for it elsewhere....
The fragrance of a flower cannot be seen,yet it heralds its existance. And I think that our inspirations are driving us towards the cause of our existance....yet they r not quite evident
We r all so quite bogged by the small upheavals in our path of life.We should probably follow the light of inspiration...then,all we see is the sky and the so-called obstacles vanish.
Monday, July 04, 2005
Random thots
I wake up this morning and smell sweet sweat dancing on my forehead.....welcome summer!....see my roomies couching in bed....finding it hard to propel themselves forward on a long weekend morning....they all hav a lazy smile...something naughty and satisfying:Its weekend and no hurrying to go to work. I feel no better...:)
I stand in front of the mirror....whom do I see? Half awake ,half asleep....I see last nights thoughts surfacing in the mirror image.....I look so much like mom....do i look better or lesser..? huh! what has US done to me. Am a lill grown, lill serious now....A lill corrupt eh? I hav quite learnt to break and bend rules....Am not able to meet my eyes for have so much wrk to do and Ive gladly spent the weekend. But still I hav the arrogant grin...
I wonder wher is me? What is me? I still wanna see that me, 40 yrs from now....no matter what the winds of change might have eroded off me....
Like everysong has an essence ,embellishments apart.....I want the song of my soul to pour into my being when I see myself....and paradoxically, I mostly know I'd need a lifetime to realise this song!
I stand in front of the mirror....whom do I see? Half awake ,half asleep....I see last nights thoughts surfacing in the mirror image.....I look so much like mom....do i look better or lesser..? huh! what has US done to me. Am a lill grown, lill serious now....A lill corrupt eh? I hav quite learnt to break and bend rules....Am not able to meet my eyes for have so much wrk to do and Ive gladly spent the weekend. But still I hav the arrogant grin...
I wonder wher is me? What is me? I still wanna see that me, 40 yrs from now....no matter what the winds of change might have eroded off me....
Like everysong has an essence ,embellishments apart.....I want the song of my soul to pour into my being when I see myself....and paradoxically, I mostly know I'd need a lifetime to realise this song!
Friday, June 24, 2005
When I grow up I wanna be a child
'When I grow up I wanna be a child',my best friend used to say this to me....Ive never seen anyone who matured so fast for their age,as she did....and she thought I was quite immature for mine.....may be thats y we r the best of the pals even today :) :)......
....I wish to keep that naivity which people complain I do retain. It sometimes bothers me....but subconsciously its tantalizing....
And what grown ups r we if we havent retained our childhood within...or havent beheld the blankness of innocence...?
I remember how I admired every view in Philadelphia when I first came here....I was so happy for the advent of spring...and the first droplets of snow melting in my palm,brought the widest smile to my heart.
Today the familiarity has paved way for boredom...some ppl also say I hav matured over the past year.....well I'm part happy ,but somehwer I hav lost the innocence and heartfelt admiration that ignorance and so bliss, bring to the mind....
When I was a child I yearned to grow up and fit into my mom's clothes and now when Im growing...I so still wanna stay a child....and leave that fragrance of wonder thru my eyes..:)
....I wish to keep that naivity which people complain I do retain. It sometimes bothers me....but subconsciously its tantalizing....
And what grown ups r we if we havent retained our childhood within...or havent beheld the blankness of innocence...?
I remember how I admired every view in Philadelphia when I first came here....I was so happy for the advent of spring...and the first droplets of snow melting in my palm,brought the widest smile to my heart.
Today the familiarity has paved way for boredom...some ppl also say I hav matured over the past year.....well I'm part happy ,but somehwer I hav lost the innocence and heartfelt admiration that ignorance and so bliss, bring to the mind....
When I was a child I yearned to grow up and fit into my mom's clothes and now when Im growing...I so still wanna stay a child....and leave that fragrance of wonder thru my eyes..:)
Monday, June 20, 2005
Its been 1.5 yrs and all my life now
Feels like yesterday when the plane took off from India.... I held my breath,closed my eyes and tried to imagine what my future would be like......as far as I can remember, all I saw was a mixture of a million questions,insecurities and hopes backing it all.....
1.5 yrs hav gone by since I landed in US....its been as swift as a feather blown off the palm.....feels more like home here now....yet not completely....
I wudnt wish to be what I was 18 months ago...nor am I fully at peace with what I am....how funny the changes in life are...they keep us wanting to go back, but we are working to get ahead!
I see my room on the webcam in the background...I see my fathers aging forehead and hopeful eyes....I see my mother touching the screen to feel me...and I realise more that I need to get far and ahead.These are the moments which form the juice of a lifetime....
I dont regret for having lost the past, nor do I repent the changes I am casting into my future (at present)....I think life is beautiful. It shows me its nature in a million unthinkable ways. And I sit and think and think till I figure ....how insignificant I am in this marvellous jigsaw puzzle of God....
1.5 yrs hav gone by since I landed in US....its been as swift as a feather blown off the palm.....feels more like home here now....yet not completely....
I wudnt wish to be what I was 18 months ago...nor am I fully at peace with what I am....how funny the changes in life are...they keep us wanting to go back, but we are working to get ahead!
I see my room on the webcam in the background...I see my fathers aging forehead and hopeful eyes....I see my mother touching the screen to feel me...and I realise more that I need to get far and ahead.These are the moments which form the juice of a lifetime....
I dont regret for having lost the past, nor do I repent the changes I am casting into my future (at present)....I think life is beautiful. It shows me its nature in a million unthinkable ways. And I sit and think and think till I figure ....how insignificant I am in this marvellous jigsaw puzzle of God....
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
One summer day on the footpath
Its summer out here....simmering 40 deg centigrade heat. Yet another day at wrk, but a short one...my boss was at home fixing central air conditioner....hehe! God bless him...I left early from wrk!
Was walking to the shuttle stop...and lo! the bus just breezed across and I missd it...well, another 20 miniutes of time to kill b4 I get the next shuttle..I saw tanned fair backs, legs ...tall hunks and babes stancing by...enuff of it now..time to do something different!
I sit down by the footpath at the shuttlestop, get out my laptop......Bingo! I hav wireless net and I start playing my fav bollywood melodies loud (dint hav my head set damn!) and chatting a good friend..i think hardly nyone cared to notice....hehe! I almost thot," Dont I look like a begger,playing music on the road and sitting on the bare floor!??".... But no one even bothered to look...they wer all so busy striding by .... I dint care either!
Thats one thing I like bout US...thers so much freedom to be urself as long as u dont step on ur neighbour's foot....ppl just leave u. The cool breeze swept in like a mirage in the desert and I waited the for the shuttle hoping it wud be late ;)
Was walking to the shuttle stop...and lo! the bus just breezed across and I missd it...well, another 20 miniutes of time to kill b4 I get the next shuttle..I saw tanned fair backs, legs ...tall hunks and babes stancing by...enuff of it now..time to do something different!
I sit down by the footpath at the shuttlestop, get out my laptop......Bingo! I hav wireless net and I start playing my fav bollywood melodies loud (dint hav my head set damn!) and chatting a good friend..i think hardly nyone cared to notice....hehe! I almost thot," Dont I look like a begger,playing music on the road and sitting on the bare floor!??".... But no one even bothered to look...they wer all so busy striding by .... I dint care either!
Thats one thing I like bout US...thers so much freedom to be urself as long as u dont step on ur neighbour's foot....ppl just leave u. The cool breeze swept in like a mirage in the desert and I waited the for the shuttle hoping it wud be late ;)
Monday, June 13, 2005
the hiking xperience
Scorching heat was feeding on my sweat as we set out for river rafting with cartloads of energy...headed towards Poconos.we hired 2 cars...and we wer supposed to follow the former...but in due time...one of our pals had an unexpected notice for exam and we had to wait till he wound up...we lost our way and went to anothr rafting place looking at the wrong sign board
It so happened we missed the rafts....and sat all down en out...Kavi was like..."all happens for good' and enquired what else is available...unfortunately it was biking and we wudnt be allowed without license. We wer all moodout and screaming and ranting en ofcourse sweating...
We finally decided to hike...I was seeing my skin grow from pale to copper brown...and my hat was wet in my body salts...dear dear anjum was making a fool of herself and everyone...and we all set off gigglin and steamin off...
As we trudged on...we came across the sign board, "Shades of Death trail" and we walked into it right away...after 2.5 hours of trekking on the knife edge steep
rocks we finally reached a beautiful beach wher a huge lot of pplwer sunning en swimming...we all had a dip and felt refreshed...
Later we met the other lot who rafted...they had a good time too...5 hours of rafting...huh!
But we had our share of fun 2 and more than we asked for....the heat had died down and the clouds had risen to cast shdows and cool breeze on our burned skins...
In life we always get what we deserve more than what we desire...i hav no complaints!!
It so happened we missed the rafts....and sat all down en out...Kavi was like..."all happens for good' and enquired what else is available...unfortunately it was biking and we wudnt be allowed without license. We wer all moodout and screaming and ranting en ofcourse sweating...
We finally decided to hike...I was seeing my skin grow from pale to copper brown...and my hat was wet in my body salts...dear dear anjum was making a fool of herself and everyone...and we all set off gigglin and steamin off...
As we trudged on...we came across the sign board, "Shades of Death trail" and we walked into it right away...after 2.5 hours of trekking on the knife edge steep
rocks we finally reached a beautiful beach wher a huge lot of pplwer sunning en swimming...we all had a dip and felt refreshed...
Later we met the other lot who rafted...they had a good time too...5 hours of rafting...huh!
But we had our share of fun 2 and more than we asked for....the heat had died down and the clouds had risen to cast shdows and cool breeze on our burned skins...
In life we always get what we deserve more than what we desire...i hav no complaints!!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Kissed to childhood
On and off I have tripped in becoming a grown up....stumbling amidst boulders of ignorance and stepping on shoulders of maturity I have reached where I am...
Often I wonder what it wud like to be totally grown up...and be in control of me and my life ...?? hehe.....thats a wanderous wonderous thought for me...
Stung by youth and kissed by childhood, I am basking in imperfection...I like it this way.....
Part innocence....part perfection...life is a messy delicious cocktail of rich experiences ....lov u life!
Often I wonder what it wud like to be totally grown up...and be in control of me and my life ...?? hehe.....thats a wanderous wonderous thought for me...
Stung by youth and kissed by childhood, I am basking in imperfection...I like it this way.....
Part innocence....part perfection...life is a messy delicious cocktail of rich experiences ....lov u life!
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
One more fleeting thought
Was a hectic day yesterday...trying to wind up my Term-project. The project means more than grades to me....my area of core competancy...and the trails of my interest goes back to that moment where I decided that I would choose Biomed Engg as a way of my thinking....and life ofcourse
Being alone kindaa sucks...so I play movies or songs when I wrk...Watched 2 movies....Mrs Minivier and JFK. Both of them dealing with the war as an industry of power and revenue....and ofcourse license to kill and satisfy the wild aimless animal in us!
In one of the scenes in the former, the heroine says to her mom-in-law,'I'd rather lov my husband every moment he's alive and not cry, coz I know after he died in the war, ther wud be a lifetime for tears'.
The second movie JFK,dealt with the plot which lead to asssasination of Kennedy by some fanatics...who believed in war ... and not peace...and Kennedy probably dared to change the status quo...Well, the kindaa ppl who killed him soon after came to power...and likeminded-men still rule USA today....who promote wars to bring in revenue to the country..
All in all I felt lost thinking that the world is so shallow a place, and the apparent good is good-good.....I wonder if these ppl who abide by injustice survive the justice of the D-day or sleep peacefully in their grave.They who live by justifying selfishness....well, God waits and watches.....but truth triumphs and ppl with open eyes to their souls can see it
Being alone kindaa sucks...so I play movies or songs when I wrk...Watched 2 movies....Mrs Minivier and JFK. Both of them dealing with the war as an industry of power and revenue....and ofcourse license to kill and satisfy the wild aimless animal in us!
In one of the scenes in the former, the heroine says to her mom-in-law,'I'd rather lov my husband every moment he's alive and not cry, coz I know after he died in the war, ther wud be a lifetime for tears'.
The second movie JFK,dealt with the plot which lead to asssasination of Kennedy by some fanatics...who believed in war ... and not peace...and Kennedy probably dared to change the status quo...Well, the kindaa ppl who killed him soon after came to power...and likeminded-men still rule USA today....who promote wars to bring in revenue to the country..
All in all I felt lost thinking that the world is so shallow a place, and the apparent good is good-good.....I wonder if these ppl who abide by injustice survive the justice of the D-day or sleep peacefully in their grave.They who live by justifying selfishness....well, God waits and watches.....but truth triumphs and ppl with open eyes to their souls can see it
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Colors of the life-bow
Ppl read books to gain perspective, to obtain knowledge....to transcend the obvious and get into the subtler dimensions...
I guess the greatest open book staring into our face is Life......the most scientific and most enigmatic.
Those multitude of experiences and range of colors life has in its rain bow....say I call it the Life-bow with the million VIBGYORs in life...hehe!
Living in a stretched moment, running till the edge of the knife.....pleasant titillating aroma of love ...... memories which linger on but refuse to go ....wounds of heartbreak.......roller coasters of success and failure....a mother's tender kiss.....a father's stable eyes....the touch of sound....and the tunes of the wind.....
And what not...every new moment holds the key to a new lesson.....coming in full circles.....wher u more or less gain as much as u lose....
And what else.....I thank God for giving me the ability to read life....and savor it both ends....
Well, I'm high on life....and the life-bow ride :)
I guess the greatest open book staring into our face is Life......the most scientific and most enigmatic.
Those multitude of experiences and range of colors life has in its rain bow....say I call it the Life-bow with the million VIBGYORs in life...hehe!
Living in a stretched moment, running till the edge of the knife.....pleasant titillating aroma of love ...... memories which linger on but refuse to go ....wounds of heartbreak.......roller coasters of success and failure....a mother's tender kiss.....a father's stable eyes....the touch of sound....and the tunes of the wind.....
And what not...every new moment holds the key to a new lesson.....coming in full circles.....wher u more or less gain as much as u lose....
And what else.....I thank God for giving me the ability to read life....and savor it both ends....
Well, I'm high on life....and the life-bow ride :)
Monday, May 23, 2005
I'm a joker
I feel like a joker today ,wearing a smile and juggling stuff and that too so badly.....hehe...have been dropping the ball now and then...
I wish I wud get paid suitably for that...but I think I'm feeling pretty good jugglin bcoz whatever the end result may be ppl r gonna applaud and make me feel good
Different issue...only I know whether I won or lost.....feels great...flying under a cartload of deadlines...my shoulders r bent but my heart seems to soar....hope I feel the same when my grades r out!
I wish I wud get paid suitably for that...but I think I'm feeling pretty good jugglin bcoz whatever the end result may be ppl r gonna applaud and make me feel good
Different issue...only I know whether I won or lost.....feels great...flying under a cartload of deadlines...my shoulders r bent but my heart seems to soar....hope I feel the same when my grades r out!
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Wilderness....
Clad in ruthless sensuality the elements of life becon me to shake hand with wilderness....stepping from childhood to maturity and way back again...
Its fun, when u dont care bout results...swaying ur body to the tunes of change....casting glances of superiority...
How I like these chains of conscience which hold me back and make me want newer things more than ever...
Am getting caught in the spell of a spectrum of changes.....I'm likin it...but it wudnt change one wee bit of a thing...judge me if u can...:)
Its fun, when u dont care bout results...swaying ur body to the tunes of change....casting glances of superiority...
How I like these chains of conscience which hold me back and make me want newer things more than ever...
Am getting caught in the spell of a spectrum of changes.....I'm likin it...but it wudnt change one wee bit of a thing...judge me if u can...:)
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
I'm ...u know
Gimme a happy moment
I wanna live life in it
Gimme a sad life
I wanna blow it as tear
Gimme a smile
I'll save it in my heart
Gimme light
I'll fill my eyes with it
Gimme darkness
I'll hide my sadness in it
Gimme tears
I'll make it a vehichle of prayer
Gimme the oceans
I'll seek silence in its depths
Gimme a song
I'll feel its pulse in silence
Gimme phrases
I'll melt it into music
I'm a woman
and I lov being so :)
I wanna live life in it
Gimme a sad life
I wanna blow it as tear
Gimme a smile
I'll save it in my heart
Gimme light
I'll fill my eyes with it
Gimme darkness
I'll hide my sadness in it
Gimme tears
I'll make it a vehichle of prayer
Gimme the oceans
I'll seek silence in its depths
Gimme a song
I'll feel its pulse in silence
Gimme phrases
I'll melt it into music
I'm a woman
and I lov being so :)
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Sleepless in Philly
Its one of those days when nothing comes ur way and as u expect......ofcourse packed with surprises....
Had a ruff ruff day at wrk...something which I really slogged 4 all weekend...actually, for quite sometime now dint come thru...was breaking in pain...and called a coupla my pals....Here u go!,actually they had the same thing to crib bout. "Good! I'm not alone in the Titanic'.....am I not a sadist ;)?
Wanted to come home and fix the lose ends at wrk.....but I caught up on a movie.When I got it from library, I just saw it had Meg Ryan and TomHanks on its cover....hadnt read the name...thats how sad I was....
The movie's 'Sleepless in Seattle'... was totally rejuvinated after watching it...some elements of the movie wer real mushy....some too stupid to believe...but the point is that I wud hav exactly done the same stupid things if I wer her....hehe....was a totally fulfillin xperience....God bless Meg Ryan and the dialogue writer....:)....Ofcourse Tom Hanks was totally adorable
I'm sleepless now wondering bout the thot of 2 strangers made for each other somewher..the usual Yash Chopra movie theme....I wonder everytime why it sounds so new!!
Hehe....Life cud be ruff....things cud not wrk out....but I gues thers a lesson if we giv one hard look and ofcourse the better things in life always counter the sadness....I'm glad I hav ppl around to care and love me! Thanq god!
Back to my wrk now...3 AM in the morning....I'm sippin coffee....I'm so bloody spoilt...some one shake me up!
Had a ruff ruff day at wrk...something which I really slogged 4 all weekend...actually, for quite sometime now dint come thru...was breaking in pain...and called a coupla my pals....Here u go!,actually they had the same thing to crib bout. "Good! I'm not alone in the Titanic'.....am I not a sadist ;)?
Wanted to come home and fix the lose ends at wrk.....but I caught up on a movie.When I got it from library, I just saw it had Meg Ryan and TomHanks on its cover....hadnt read the name...thats how sad I was....
The movie's 'Sleepless in Seattle'... was totally rejuvinated after watching it...some elements of the movie wer real mushy....some too stupid to believe...but the point is that I wud hav exactly done the same stupid things if I wer her....hehe....was a totally fulfillin xperience....God bless Meg Ryan and the dialogue writer....:)....Ofcourse Tom Hanks was totally adorable
I'm sleepless now wondering bout the thot of 2 strangers made for each other somewher..the usual Yash Chopra movie theme....I wonder everytime why it sounds so new!!
Hehe....Life cud be ruff....things cud not wrk out....but I gues thers a lesson if we giv one hard look and ofcourse the better things in life always counter the sadness....I'm glad I hav ppl around to care and love me! Thanq god!
Back to my wrk now...3 AM in the morning....I'm sippin coffee....I'm so bloody spoilt...some one shake me up!
Monday, May 16, 2005
Another start
The sun's rays caress my eyelashes as the darkness breaks into dawn and widens into daylight
......the night has not ended...the thoughts still smell so fresh....are they dew drops or seeds of thought? my mind is racing on the charriots of time...
I have a lazy smile on the edges of my lip...a feeling of content only I know....as I peek out into the fresh air....I feel I'm reborn
Guess whatt I did a night out on a Sunday..jusfinished my assigntment! Done for good...grrr!
Good morning folks :)
......the night has not ended...the thoughts still smell so fresh....are they dew drops or seeds of thought? my mind is racing on the charriots of time...
I have a lazy smile on the edges of my lip...a feeling of content only I know....as I peek out into the fresh air....I feel I'm reborn
Guess whatt I did a night out on a Sunday..jusfinished my assigntment! Done for good...grrr!
Good morning folks :)
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Looking back
Have been in some hurry for quite a few months now..to go on...get on...ahead and far..
And for one sudden moment I pause the frames of time and look back...and I express 'My!'....how the winds of change hav eroded the stable plain lands into canyons so steep....
I must say time has the magic .... it knows it all and it does it all....to change one's life..to help one grow....smiles of fullfilment and pains of dissatisfaction flash in front of my eyes...I must admit I have changed so much...!
I have departed from myself in countless ways...and I am trygin to connect to the superior things...so called superior things...in the other ways...
A sort of uneasy feeling creeps in....all these oscillations some temporary some permanent...what would it all mean...I donno now ..but I will wait...
But the answers to all these lie in me, sooner or later I know....its upto me to look at it with simple eyes. The world has brought in so much dust in the eye that I'm unable to see my soul...:)
Nevermind...thers a new day..and a new way....and ofcourse time knows it all
And for one sudden moment I pause the frames of time and look back...and I express 'My!'....how the winds of change hav eroded the stable plain lands into canyons so steep....
I must say time has the magic .... it knows it all and it does it all....to change one's life..to help one grow....smiles of fullfilment and pains of dissatisfaction flash in front of my eyes...I must admit I have changed so much...!
I have departed from myself in countless ways...and I am trygin to connect to the superior things...so called superior things...in the other ways...
A sort of uneasy feeling creeps in....all these oscillations some temporary some permanent...what would it all mean...I donno now ..but I will wait...
But the answers to all these lie in me, sooner or later I know....its upto me to look at it with simple eyes. The world has brought in so much dust in the eye that I'm unable to see my soul...:)
Nevermind...thers a new day..and a new way....and ofcourse time knows it all
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Warm cosy dreams
Just watched a movie with my usual multi tasking of work,dinner and incomplete 'hi' ,'hello' business ...
I hav had a steadily hectic day....thers so much more to go...and here I lay cuddled in my cosy comforter totally shielded from the truths and illusions....
I am happy as a child , no worry ,no pain....no losses no gain....I dwell in this bliss in an eternally large single moment....blanking myself into a thoughtless space...
I'm happy for this moment...I'm happy for this silence....I'm happy to connect to not to 'what I am',' but to who I am'.....the gentle warm fingers of angels caress my forehead and whisper luulabies into my dreams...
adios..im in heaven...and a blank page...gnite :)
I hav had a steadily hectic day....thers so much more to go...and here I lay cuddled in my cosy comforter totally shielded from the truths and illusions....
I am happy as a child , no worry ,no pain....no losses no gain....I dwell in this bliss in an eternally large single moment....blanking myself into a thoughtless space...
I'm happy for this moment...I'm happy for this silence....I'm happy to connect to not to 'what I am',' but to who I am'.....the gentle warm fingers of angels caress my forehead and whisper luulabies into my dreams...
adios..im in heaven...and a blank page...gnite :)
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Love and Sun
As I walk down the silent streets of the Medical College Campus, I notice the fences and window sills endowed with a delicate bunch of fresh greenery and budding life...they all look at the sun..
Every leaf, every plant reaches out for the packets of light flowing thru the part delicate, part harsh, rays of sun.....and smile cheerfully...
It quite so similar to life....we all look for acheivement,success, money and materials...and drag the paths of life to reach them...
We knock down every milestone and move forward.....and look for the next one...and so on and so forth.....
But is it all this we'r looking for....? May be not....thers something deeper and stronger ruling thes material pleasures....ruling success and acheivements all along....something called love...
Like it or not, the ultimate undercurrent controlling factors of life is love...where science and technology have failed...love and faith in known or unknown elements have taken over...
Undeniably love adds meaning to life....may be shapes life better than we think we do :)
Every leaf, every plant reaches out for the packets of light flowing thru the part delicate, part harsh, rays of sun.....and smile cheerfully...
It quite so similar to life....we all look for acheivement,success, money and materials...and drag the paths of life to reach them...
We knock down every milestone and move forward.....and look for the next one...and so on and so forth.....
But is it all this we'r looking for....? May be not....thers something deeper and stronger ruling thes material pleasures....ruling success and acheivements all along....something called love...
Like it or not, the ultimate undercurrent controlling factors of life is love...where science and technology have failed...love and faith in known or unknown elements have taken over...
Undeniably love adds meaning to life....may be shapes life better than we think we do :)
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Musical and muses
>The heavens are blue
Proclaiming to you
The golry of God thy Creator
The sunset thats bright
What a beautiful sight
And they say all the glory of God
Author of beauty of beauty God on high....etc
>Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things......etc
What wonderful words....pearls of thoughts knit into garlands of muses...musical and heart warming......
I love playing with words.....all the fiddle-diddle....and hustle bustle....and all new meaning emerging out of every effort....
Life is all about thoughts or actions or words....:)
Proclaiming to you
The golry of God thy Creator
The sunset thats bright
What a beautiful sight
And they say all the glory of God
Author of beauty of beauty God on high....etc
>Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things......etc
What wonderful words....pearls of thoughts knit into garlands of muses...musical and heart warming......
I love playing with words.....all the fiddle-diddle....and hustle bustle....and all new meaning emerging out of every effort....
Life is all about thoughts or actions or words....:)
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